Sunday, June 28, 2009

Over and done with
Never going back
Take down all the post its
Telling me to do my laundry
And call my friends
And call the dentist
Clean out the closet
Clean out the desk
Get rid of all the shit in my life
Keep some of the strings
But cut most of them
Well, maybe only some of them
Move on
So I can get somewhere
And then move on

Saturday, June 27, 2009

i was cleaning out my desk and i found this from on of those school journals from sophomore year of high school...

I’m stuck with reality and don’t want to be. I want to be forever in those hours when it’s too late to some things and too early to do others. All you can do is get phone calls and talk about drama that’s going on in reality with really being there. I can listen to the music and wish my life was like that, but quickly come to realization that my life is not like that, won’t ever be and it’s time to go to bed, to face what I most want to avoid—my life.

it makes me wonder what the prompt was...

Saturday, June 13, 2009

turn around
go back
fix it
maybe its not broken though
it feels broken
and that feels broken too
i can't fix that
it'll hurt me anyway
no matter what happens
but i want the control
well not control
just the power to fix it
and to make it better
happier
maybe i can still fix it
but ill probably just end up confused
i spend a lot of time with confused
confused is hard to fix
just like it is fix
just like that is harder to fix