Magnetic Poetry

friend

look and listen to my voice

music can speak for me

if only this child would know her love

after this is over

I must run

that is my secret

Over and done with
Never going back
Take down all the post its
Telling me to do my laundry
And call my friends
And call the dentist
Clean out the closet
Clean out the desk
Get rid of all the shit in my life
Keep some of the strings
But cut most of them
Well, maybe only some of them
Move on
So I can get somewhere
And then move on

i was cleaning out my desk and i found this from on of those school journals from sophomore year of high school...

I’m stuck with reality and don’t want to be. I want to be forever in those hours when it’s too late to some things and too early to do others. All you can do is get phone calls and talk about drama that’s going on in reality with really being there. I can listen to the music and wish my life was like that, but quickly come to realization that my life is not like that, won’t ever be and it’s time to go to bed, to face what I most want to avoid—my life.

it makes me wonder what the prompt was...

turn around
go back
fix it
maybe its not broken though
it feels broken
and that feels broken too
i can't fix that
it'll hurt me anyway
no matter what happens
but i want the control
well not control
just the power to fix it
and to make it better
happier
maybe i can still fix it
but ill probably just end up confused
i spend a lot of time with confused
confused is hard to fix
just like it is fix
just like that is harder to fix

Passion

so we watched the Passion last night, me and a whole lot of people who live on my floor and the floor below me. it was...i dont even know how to describe it. that movie leaves me speechless and just in awe. but we talked about it a little afterwards. it was great.

the tears of Mary, a mother, are my tears

[when they turned the cross over] the face of Jesus so close to the ground

when Jesus was speared in the side, it was Him pouring Himself out, physically to us, even in His death. His death did not stop Him from giving of Himself to us.

Lord, we come to you unworthy, but so grateful. You gave of Yourself completely. Teach me how to give of myself to each other as You have given Yourself to us. Teach me to embrace my crosses as You embraced Yours. Let me love as You do.

Meditations on the Passion

This is my body
This is my blood
For you
This is my love for you

If you had but one sin
I'd give my body
Give my blood
This is my love for you

Abandon me in prayer
Betray me with a kiss
Deny me in the couryard
I give my body
Give my blood
This is my love for you

Accuse me
Bear false witness
Charge me
Spit on me
Mock me
Strike me
I give my body
Give my blood
This is my love for you

Scourge me
Crown me
Hold the hammer in your hand
Drive a nail into mine
I give my body
Give my blood
Give my life
This is my love for you